its days like these when i realize how much she really loved you. she never talks about you but just by looking at her you can tell that she misses you like crazy. i wonder what things would be like if you were still here. i think she would be a different person. probably a happier person. i wish she would tell me about you sometime. she doesnt like to talk about you though. but i want to know what you were like because she says we were a lot a like. the most i know about you is that you would dance all the time which is what i do so i can see how were alike there. the only other thing i know is that you died from depression. why were you depressed grandpa ? i still cant figure it out. she said you just fell into a depression & you just couldn’t get out of it. what hurts the most she told me is seeing the anti-depressant commercials on tv. that drug was invented 3 years after you died & couldve saved your life. but everything happens for a reason i guess. she seems so lonely she as being my gram/your wife. shes always by herself in that house up in philly right where you left her. i dont think she’ll ever leave there just because she feels like theres a part of you still there. today i just noticed her sitting there in thought. i knew she was thinking about you. she does every holiday. she doesnt tell me i just know. things would be so different if you were here & i wish you were here more then anything. grams getting older & is forgetting things a lot more. today she forgot my name. thats what hurt the most. mom said she was just confused & getting old but it still hurt. but anyway what i really wanted to say was just look over her grandpa because i know shes getting old & i dont know whats going to happen from here. shes the only gram i have left & i dont want to lose her no matter what.